Shopping

It is very interesting to go shopping in Jonesboro during the Christmas season. There were sooooo many accidents. And unbelievably, someone called in a bomb threat at Wal-Mart on Highland.

Larz was gone today which was ok. It was kinda like he was at work. I missed him, but not like he was gone out of town.

Kim brought the girls and her niece and nephew over today, because Kerry got out of jail and acted a fool at her house. It is ridiculous how stupid grown people will act. She has dealt with him for the last nine years and it is time to move on. I just hope that she sticks with it! I just pray and pray and pray that she will not let him back. Bobby is 20 time better than Kerry in pretty much every way that I can see. sigh.

Ok, I have been up too long and need to go to sleep.

sigh another complication from the accident

Ok. So another complication from the accident is my hair! I wonder if I can get some monetary compensation from the hair so that I can go to the hairdresser since I can't lift my arms above my head long enough to do my own hair. It is sooooooooo annoying. I could wash it, but I can't blow dry it or twist it. Sigh.

And this is not from the accident, but is annoying. I have to have an evaluation for the sleep study in the middle of the day! On my third day in the field. I don't know how that is going to go over. sigh. I still feel like I should blame that on my accident. I won't but I feel like I should lol.

Still not ready for Christmas

Ok! Now is not the time to panic, but I am not done shopping for Christmas. It's a piteous fact, because the children didn't ask for much and I have little money! So it should be done. Now the stores are full of people. The blessed little dear terrors are out of school and in the malls and I have to venture out with them all. Sigh. What was I thinking?

accident

I was in a car accident today. I yelled at the driver who caused the accident. She was really hysterical and I think I caught a little bit of it. At first I told her, it's ok. Then I was like "Shut the hell up and look at what you did to my car!?!!?" "LOOK AT MY CAR!" I feel a little bad now, because she was young and incredibly stupid apparently. . . apparently. But look at my car! Shit.

The ambulance ride was torture. The EMT was funny, but laughing hurt me. I think they decided I wasn't seriously hurt and that I was just taking a gratuiitous ride to the hospital for no reason. I really feel like that. They were super nice and very interesting, but I feel like everyone thinks I wasn't that hurt. I have so learned how to put my pain in the back that I will never show how hurt I am. I mean never. I feel like that is a weakness that I don't need. I could have wailed and cried and screamed, but what good would it have done. Better to block it all out and move on. Block it out and move on.

And now I am sitting here hurt. I have to write a letter to St. Bernard's because I think that they are determined to kill me once again. I go to the hospital and my blood sugar is 300+ and I have an awful headache and I feel nauseous. They don't treat any of that. I am going to write several letters until I get some sort of satisfactory response and I might even contact a lawyer. I mean what I went through was ridiculous and dangerous! I don't know what I want to happen, but I really think that this needs to be addressed.

Sick and tired of being sick an tired. I really should have stayed at home.

Work sigh

My boss drives me absolutely crazy! I tell her something and then two days later she tells it to me like I am hearing it for the first time! It is really really really really really annoying beyond belief! You would think that having a boss who never pays attention to what you do would be great, but it is awful! I could be doing something totally wrong and she never knows it until it is too late! Drives me crazy. And then you can never get a straight answer out of her. She never calls you back!

They know so little

Ok. So everyday in class I feel like a big knowitall dork. Why should I be made to feel like this just because I read the paper, watch the news, read education news and just in general pay attention!? Why? All I know is that on a daily basis in class I don't want to raise my hand and I don't want to talk because I don't want people to look at me like there goes that chick again who thinks she knows it all. It's not that I knowitall or even a whole lot sometimes. Sometimes it is just how the teacher phrases the question "Have you heard about ______________?" Well, if it just happens to be a general idea of what is going on, then yes I know about it somewhat.

I just look around and look at these people and continue to make my list of people who will not be allowed to teach my children! lol.

This is a test!

Summer School

Ok. So I have started summer school which is no problem. I have a test next week and I have already started studying. I have to do my philosophy and I have started what we will call preliminary work on that. I am very tired recently so my motivation for these things is very low.

My friend Kim is also going to summer school. I helped her write her paper. I love my friend, but more often than not she only calls me when she needs something. I don't think she even realizes this. Oh well, I will trudge on. I do enjoy talking to her, but even more important, I think that she needs someone like me in her life.

My bestest friend Sarah is getting married. I am really struggling with going. We can stay at her home which will save money, but it is quite a ways from here. This means that it will take a chunk out of our money that we don't have to spare. I really really really want to see her. I haven't seen her since I was pregnant with VJ. And I know we won't have any money next summer. We will figure it out. I want to go.

Ken Robinson says schools kill creativity | Video on TED.com

Ken Robinson says schools kill creativity Video on TED.com

Very very interesting.

Gonna do this

Ok. So I have decided that I need to go ahead and do this blogger thing. I mean really do it, not just log in every six months or so. So much has happened I don't even have the brain power to write it all down.

I guess I will just start with my thoughts of today. It is Christmas Eve and my children have waay too much under the tree as they all do. I am proud that my husband has some stuff on the tree that he will like and appreciate. I think he will be excited when he sees what he got. I know the children will be excited. It is nice to go ahead and start over. This has been a stressful year and I have been hard on my family. My resolution is to be better. They have been so great with understanding all the hard work and long hours I am putting in with going back to school and trying to be successful. I just pray that all of this is for something! I know it will be. It has to be I couldn't go through all of this and put my family through all of this for nothing. Next Christmas won't be as big as this one and this one isn't as big as others that we have had. They are very understanding and precious little boys and I love them sooo much.

Reality TV

I love Foodnetwork Challenge! This is such a fascinating show. I have discovered that I love reality shows period. I watch just about anything that is absurd or makes me laugh or gasp or makes me go awww. I mean I have watched Bridezillas, Flavor Flav, New York, Food Network Challenge, people making clothes and cars and just all kinds of stuff. Sometimes it is just to see the way other people live their lives. crazy!!

Ice Storm

There was an ice storm recently.  We were forced by the lack of power to leave our home.   This was scary.  To think of how easily we were all bowed by the throes of winter and something as simple as the lights going out.  Though I rejoice in how we have all rallied around each other.  These communities have a great spirit in them.  There are problems and there are issues, but when there is  need, there is a silent rallying cry that calls everyone to rise and do what is needed to help themselves and their fellow man.

Bankruptcy

The bankruptcy is finally almost done! This is something that we started sooo long ago and finally we are about to go ahead and be done! Today we go to a creditor's meeting at the courthouse. I am nervous. My stomach hurts. OH! I need to call my boss and tell her I have an appointment this morning and won't be in for a while. I meant to tell her yesterday and forgot.

You ever have one of those days where you are sooo exhausted. I am. I was sick on my birthday and now it's like not only am I not recovering, I am suffering from a second bout! It's one of those things, where you want to burrow in the covers and moan to yourself and just throw a big pity party.

Today is my son's sixth birthday! There are ten children in my house! Save me! Save me! Save them!!! :)

Just checking

This is just a test. I am supposed to be able to post to my blog via email. So let’s see. I have really got to do some work. I was going to leave early today, but I didn’t work, so I feel guilty. sigh

Kimberly Roberts

IDA Coordinator

PO Box 1497

2114 N. Church St.

Jonesboro, AR 72403

(870) 935.8610 ext 112

(870) 802.7128 -- fax

Experience is something you don't get until just after you need it.

Exhausted

I am exhausted. I don't know if it is physically or emotionally, because I am too worn out to tell. I know that I am stressed about work. Like today, I have been unable to do anything, because for some reason I am overwhelmed by the sheer enormity of what I have to do. Sigh.

Travel Check!

Travel Check came early!!! Yeah! Yeah! I love getting my travel check. Though this is the smallest one I have gotten in a few months, but that is good, because it means that I am getting to sit at my desk and do stuff!!!

Banned

I was banned from my favorite yahoo group! I don't know why! I hate not knowing why!

I have a preliminary job offer. The day I did the interview. I don't think they noticed I was pregnant and if they did that is just wonderful, because they are considering hiring me anyway! What a good agency! The only bad thing is that the job is 45 minutes away. sigh.