Work sigh

My boss drives me absolutely crazy! I tell her something and then two days later she tells it to me like I am hearing it for the first time! It is really really really really really annoying beyond belief! You would think that having a boss who never pays attention to what you do would be great, but it is awful! I could be doing something totally wrong and she never knows it until it is too late! Drives me crazy. And then you can never get a straight answer out of her. She never calls you back!

They know so little

Ok. So everyday in class I feel like a big knowitall dork. Why should I be made to feel like this just because I read the paper, watch the news, read education news and just in general pay attention!? Why? All I know is that on a daily basis in class I don't want to raise my hand and I don't want to talk because I don't want people to look at me like there goes that chick again who thinks she knows it all. It's not that I knowitall or even a whole lot sometimes. Sometimes it is just how the teacher phrases the question "Have you heard about ______________?" Well, if it just happens to be a general idea of what is going on, then yes I know about it somewhat.

I just look around and look at these people and continue to make my list of people who will not be allowed to teach my children! lol.

This is a test!

Summer School

Ok. So I have started summer school which is no problem. I have a test next week and I have already started studying. I have to do my philosophy and I have started what we will call preliminary work on that. I am very tired recently so my motivation for these things is very low.

My friend Kim is also going to summer school. I helped her write her paper. I love my friend, but more often than not she only calls me when she needs something. I don't think she even realizes this. Oh well, I will trudge on. I do enjoy talking to her, but even more important, I think that she needs someone like me in her life.

My bestest friend Sarah is getting married. I am really struggling with going. We can stay at her home which will save money, but it is quite a ways from here. This means that it will take a chunk out of our money that we don't have to spare. I really really really want to see her. I haven't seen her since I was pregnant with VJ. And I know we won't have any money next summer. We will figure it out. I want to go.

Ken Robinson says schools kill creativity | Video on TED.com

Ken Robinson says schools kill creativity Video on TED.com

Very very interesting.

Gonna do this

Ok. So I have decided that I need to go ahead and do this blogger thing. I mean really do it, not just log in every six months or so. So much has happened I don't even have the brain power to write it all down.

I guess I will just start with my thoughts of today. It is Christmas Eve and my children have waay too much under the tree as they all do. I am proud that my husband has some stuff on the tree that he will like and appreciate. I think he will be excited when he sees what he got. I know the children will be excited. It is nice to go ahead and start over. This has been a stressful year and I have been hard on my family. My resolution is to be better. They have been so great with understanding all the hard work and long hours I am putting in with going back to school and trying to be successful. I just pray that all of this is for something! I know it will be. It has to be I couldn't go through all of this and put my family through all of this for nothing. Next Christmas won't be as big as this one and this one isn't as big as others that we have had. They are very understanding and precious little boys and I love them sooo much.

Reality TV

I love Foodnetwork Challenge! This is such a fascinating show. I have discovered that I love reality shows period. I watch just about anything that is absurd or makes me laugh or gasp or makes me go awww. I mean I have watched Bridezillas, Flavor Flav, New York, Food Network Challenge, people making clothes and cars and just all kinds of stuff. Sometimes it is just to see the way other people live their lives. crazy!!

Ice Storm

There was an ice storm recently.  We were forced by the lack of power to leave our home.   This was scary.  To think of how easily we were all bowed by the throes of winter and something as simple as the lights going out.  Though I rejoice in how we have all rallied around each other.  These communities have a great spirit in them.  There are problems and there are issues, but when there is  need, there is a silent rallying cry that calls everyone to rise and do what is needed to help themselves and their fellow man.

Bankruptcy

The bankruptcy is finally almost done! This is something that we started sooo long ago and finally we are about to go ahead and be done! Today we go to a creditor's meeting at the courthouse. I am nervous. My stomach hurts. OH! I need to call my boss and tell her I have an appointment this morning and won't be in for a while. I meant to tell her yesterday and forgot.

You ever have one of those days where you are sooo exhausted. I am. I was sick on my birthday and now it's like not only am I not recovering, I am suffering from a second bout! It's one of those things, where you want to burrow in the covers and moan to yourself and just throw a big pity party.

Today is my son's sixth birthday! There are ten children in my house! Save me! Save me! Save them!!! :)

Just checking

This is just a test. I am supposed to be able to post to my blog via email. So let’s see. I have really got to do some work. I was going to leave early today, but I didn’t work, so I feel guilty. sigh

Kimberly Roberts

IDA Coordinator

PO Box 1497

2114 N. Church St.

Jonesboro, AR 72403

(870) 935.8610 ext 112

(870) 802.7128 -- fax

Experience is something you don't get until just after you need it.

Exhausted

I am exhausted. I don't know if it is physically or emotionally, because I am too worn out to tell. I know that I am stressed about work. Like today, I have been unable to do anything, because for some reason I am overwhelmed by the sheer enormity of what I have to do. Sigh.

Travel Check!

Travel Check came early!!! Yeah! Yeah! I love getting my travel check. Though this is the smallest one I have gotten in a few months, but that is good, because it means that I am getting to sit at my desk and do stuff!!!

Banned

I was banned from my favorite yahoo group! I don't know why! I hate not knowing why!

I have a preliminary job offer. The day I did the interview. I don't think they noticed I was pregnant and if they did that is just wonderful, because they are considering hiring me anyway! What a good agency! The only bad thing is that the job is 45 minutes away. sigh.

No money

We have no money and I am tired of having no money. I need to pay the doctor for delivering this baby and all that good stuff.

I have been having mood swings again and it is starting to get on my own nerves. My poor Larz and poor boys. I have been trying to stay out of their way. sigh.

Last half hour at work

It is my last half hour at work. This is my first blog entry. I am so excited. The server shut down so I can't do what I was doing, because my forms and papers were on the server and not on my actual computer.

Today has been like a crap day. Larz's stupid Chrysler is just dying. We just paid $100 to put a new battery in and now we are going to be out another $300 to put in another alternator. My poor children are going to start school looking really pitiful. And I haven't bought anything for my little biscuit. I am so tired of being broke. I just want that stupid house in Iowa to sell. I just thank God that we have someone renting it or we wouldn't be making it at all. We even had to borrow from the money that we had for their deposit, but we are slowly paying that back. Hopefully, they won't move out before we get that paid back. Sigh.

Tee and I are going to Meridian tonight. This will be a long boring weekend. None of my friends live in Meridian. I have one guy friend who lives there and he leaves every weekend either on business or to stay with his girlfriend who lives in the town where he works. sigh. Poor me. Ok enough of that nonsense.

I am super tired and ready to go home!